Lost Paradise

The lies keep coming…

Like a river running on
The lies keep rolling on and on
The king thinks he is so smart
He sits up there with no heart

But what he does not get
And does not see
I am not the little lamb
He wants me to be

Do you think it will be
As good as he says
Or do you know how bad it is
Well we shall see

The red pill I did take
But what will be my fate
For me martyr is what’s to come
And my work is never done

If your stupid
and do not care
Then the blue pill you’ll take
And we all know your fate

“Yes ma’am yes sir
We are your sheeple
No more for us
of ‘We The People’”

Lets just hope
your as smart as me
That you choose the fate
that’s meant to be

So take the red pill
If your smart
Or choose the blue
If you have no heart

The choice is yours

I wrote this poem 4 days ago but I am lazy and waited until today to post it lol. Ok ok so I have things going on but I’ll stick with sheer laziness. Anyways heres the poem:

(Dedicated to grandma and anyone who has ever lost someone)

When I think of you smiling back at me
It reminds me of old memories
When days were fun
And we use to run
Sometimes we would fall
Sometimes we would laugh
Sometimes we would even roll around in the grass.

Oh those were the days
And I had always thought they would last
If I only had known
You would be gone so fast
Just the thought of you
Being gone from me
It tears me up inside
But at least I know
You are always looking down on me.

Pain is gone and I am feeling much better. Hope all is well with the rest of the world.

Why is it that when you tell someone something they don’t want to listen even when they know you are right?
Or that they watched what you went through and they still don’t want to beleive it is happening to them.
Or maybe it is just that they don’t want to admit it even they know it is true?
Sometimes I think people can be so stubborn.

Just a little rant by me, sorry but sometimes it is a good thing to rant about it instead of holding it in.

To someone who is lost (You Know Who You Are)
(If this is confusing it’s not you)

You know that this person hurts you
You say you want so much more
Yet you stay with them just because
You think you don’t want to be alone anymore

Everyone hates the feeling of loneliness
Everyone hates to be alone
If you would just give it a chance
You might just realize, you’re never alone

You put up with the bullshit
You put up with the lies
The thing I don’t get is
Why? Why? Why? Do you even try…

A little update on me. :???: So I been feeling kind of down lately. I have not been feeling all that great and my stomach keeps bothering me. Been nautious and having alot of headaches too. So I went to get checked out and the doctor thought it was my gall bladder but to my content it wasn’t. However, they did find something on the x-rays. A oval shaped mass in my right abdomen. This scares me. I am sure I will be ok, but the thought of it all just kind of scares me. Today I have to have a cat scan so they can prod at me a little more and figure out what it really is.

There are three things that I know and will always beleive. Everything happens for a reason. God only puts you through things that you can handle. And last but not least, always have a bright outlook on things because if you don’t they are doomed from the start.

On a more brighter note, my friend came down for the weekend. I am so happy that she did. It has been a couple months since I seen her last. Its been alot of fun. But I sure hate to see time fly. Especially when you are having fun. So alas, she will go home and yes it probably will be a couple more before I can see her again. But at least we had fun and always do each time we see each other.

Oh and note to self: when making chicken don’t try to add to much time to it next time. *Wound up with dry chicken* Or add to much vinegar to the potato salad. LOL *Makes for a really strong salad*

But most of all remember to have fun as much as possible. And always think on the positive. Never the negative. Be greatful for what you got and give thanks for it too.

Friends
Some friends are good.
Some friends are bad.
Some friends can make u really really mad.

The good ones last forever.
The bad ones never stay.
Keep all your good friends close by and never let them stray.

May God Bless those that read this. Amen.

The world is breaking
His heart is aching

He sheds another tear
For all those not near

As his children die
He sits and he cries

For they don’t know
Of all his woe.

They sit in the dark
Breaking his poor heart

Satan has them in his hands
Stringing them along in his deadly little band

They sit there and baa like stupid little sheep
“Yes dear Satan we are at your feet

Do with us what you may
All we want to do is sit in the hay”

For this reason God is so sad
That his beautiful flock could be so bad

When all is said and done
Which way will you go
Do you want the end that is fun?
Or will you be a martyr and on the run?

Which ever way you choose to go
I hope you know God loves you so.